Aspiring to be a Gardener
Well I started school this week. Today I sat in my car before class contemplating whether or not to go in. I get like that sometimes, it's just one of my "things" I guess. I did go in, with a weird nervousness in the pit of my stomach. The class I had tonight is called "Youth at Risk." God has been doing some things in my heart for a while concerning youth so I thought this would be a good class for me. Thankfully, there were people I knew from previous classes in there and I even made a new friend so that was good. My professor is pretty amazing. She is so calm and has A LOT of knowledge. I look forward to asking her questions and all that good stuff. Anywho, something she said tonight really stuck with me. I think it was from our book, but she brought it to life... She said that we should be gardeners and not mechanics. For the rest of the class I just started thinking about what that really means for me. A gardener works with living things, they nurture and help things grow. A mechanic works with objects and tries to fix those objects.
Sometimes I get this fear in me. Yes I love people. I love my girls from Hume. I care deeply about kids who aren't being nurtured and who don't feel love. But sometimes I just get scared that I don't know enough to do anything about how passionate I am about these things. I guess that I've always just felt that love just isn't enough for me to make a difference.
Then I realize that it isn't me making the difference anyway, it's God. He's the real gardener. Do you know what I'm trying to say here? I'm definitely NOT a mechanic. I understand that I can't fix people. But sometimes I don't know if I'm really a gardener either. Please pray for me friends.
In other news, I don't work tomorrow. What a sweet, sweet day. I love you guys.

Week of Utter Insanity
I have a feeling that this week is going to be c to the razy. I see it in the forecast. It's not a bad crazy though, I just probably won't get very much rest and all that jazz. Let's see, I watched the meteor shower last night. It wasn't really a "shower" of meteors, but I saw enough to keep me satisfied until next year. There was this one (ok, four) that made me cry a little. Sometimes I just get overwhelmed by what God does. Even a little shooting star is amazing. I hope I never lose that.

Cover Me- Bebo Norman

Cover me, cover up my tears
Cover up this man who's covered up in fear
I need a peace of mind, I need a piece of you
To cover all that's gone and everything that's new
You unveil me with your mercy
I want to breathe you in
You unfold me, then you hold me
Cover up my heart, cover up my soul
Cover up this world and everything I know
You cover up the sky, you cover up the sea
Cover up the mountains and every part of me
And every single breath I breathe...Cover me

I am still alive and covered up in years
Covered up in lines as innocence appears
So give me a peace of mind, give me a piece of you
To cover all that's old
with everything that's new
You unveil me with your mercy
I want to breathe you in
And you unfold me, then you hold me
Cover up my heart, cover up my soul
Cover up this world and everything I know
You cover up the sky, you cover up the sea
Cover up the mountains and every part of me
And every single breath I breathe...Cover me

You unveil me with your mercy
I want to breathe you in
You unfold me then you hold me
I want to shed this skin
You unveil me with your mercy
You unfold me, then you hold me
You unbreak me, would you take me home

Cover up my heart, cover up my soul
Cover up this world and everything I know
You cover up the sky, you cover up the sea
Cover up the mountains and every part of me
And every single breath I breathe...Cover me

Sometimes I still swallow my gum.
It's true, I still swallow my gum sometimes. I don't really know if what "they" say about gum staying in your digestive system for a million years is true, but I'll take my chances. Once again, I'm writing this at work, it's bringing a little sunshine to my day. Is it always going to be like this? Will I eventually end up despising every job I ever have? I started thinking about jobs that I think I would like and that I wouldn't get bored with. Here are a few:

1)Professional Nap Taker

2)Hanging out at Hume forever

3)Hanging with my girls from Hume all day

4)Going hiking everyday and getting paid for it

5)Being a DJ sounds kind of exciting

6)Visiting different towns/states/countries

That's all I can think of right now. Please pray that God will change my attitude about my job. Thanks guys. Love you!

Today's Headlines
"Country star Tim McGraw gets groped"

"New underwater pogo stick record set"

"Afghan poppy crop sets a new record"

"Spain hosts largest tomato fight on earth"

"Lohan before DUI arrest: ‘I would not do that’ "

Are the people who write about these things serious? The news is getting pretty ridiculous if you ask me.