The crazy cat lady is coming out!
So seriously, I saw this cat today and fell in love with it. It's grey and white and chubby. Adorable. I want to adopt it so bad! I might just do it, I haven't decided. I have another interview with Habitat for Humanity on Tuesday... I want that more than the cat. And in other news.... I have an appointment for a second opinion on March 6th. From there I will go to my usual doctor and schedule surgery. I had the ct scan and there's something on both of my ovaries. There's a chance they could be cysts so lets pray for that. Or we could pray for them to pull a Houdini and disappear. :o) I also just read the title of this blog and it sounds questionable.... it means that the crazy cat lady in me is surfacing. You get it. In other other news, I really miss youth group on Tuesday nights. It makes my heart hurt not being there and I've actually thought about quitting school just so I can go. Don't worry, I won't actually do that.
I want to thank you guys for your encouragement and prayers. Honestly, they mean a lot. Blessings to you all!!

What? Etc.
I don't even know if I should be writing this blog right now. I'm a little (ok, a lot) confused right now and scared too. Umm, where do I begin? I went to the doctor (the obgyn) on Tuesday because of some random stuff that was going on with my body. And what a fun time that was! This is why I'm writing this blog- I had an ultrasound, an internal one, and one of my ovaries is really big. So big that I'm calling it my second uterus. During the ultrasound I was calm because I didn't know what it all meant. After the ordeal the dr. told me that it was kind of a big deal. First there was the word ct scan, then the words possibly a tumor, then the word surgery. And that's what's going on. And now all I can think about are the "what if's." What if I wake up from surgery with a hysterectomy? There are a lot of other what if's I've been thinking about too. I just don't really want to actually say them. And then there's the timing off all of this. I don't know if you guys know that I have class 4 nights a week and it's my last semester. My very last semester. I have to stay on top of this research project and this whole thing doesn't really fit into that. It's God's timing though... that's hard for me to grasp.
People have been telling me not to freak out, this happens to people all of the time, I shouldn't worry. I don't know how to respond to that. I'm scared and confused, and upset. And right now, it physically hurts. It hasn't been lately, but now it does. I NEED your prayers. I am not ashamed to ask for them. Please please pray for peace. My heart is so heavy and I really don't know how to let it go. I want to accept whatever God is doing with joy, and right now that's not the case. I don't even know who sings this song, but I heard it today on KLove (I know it's cheesy). I feel like I've been holding my breath for the past 2 days and this made me let it out- "The voice of truth tells me a different story. The voice of truth says, 'Do not be afraid.' The voice of truth says, 'This is for My glory.' Out of all the voices calling out my name, I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth." There was a lot of comfort in that, but I still have a lot to go.
So, I pretty much wrote this blog to let you guys know what's going on so that I don't have to keep telling people. I also need as much prayer as possible and I just needed to get out some of my hidden feelings about the whole situation. Anywho, thanks for the prayers and the kind words and thoughts. I love you guys.

Haven't Done this in a while.....

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
Jamba Juice Smoothie Maker
Camp Counselor
Bank Teller
Shipping Clerk
B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
Beetlejuice
The Wedding Singer
Season 3 of The Office
Season 1 of 30 Rock
C) Four places I have lived:
Santa Maria, CA
Sacramento, CA
Hume, CA
Orcutt, CA
D) Four TV shows that I watch:
The Office
30 Rock
LOST
Good Eats
E) Four places I have been:
Yosemite
The Grand Canyon
Disneyland
TJ
F) Four people who email me (somewhat regularly):
People trying to sell me male enhancement products
My sister Jessica
My boss
Various co workers
G) Four Foods that I love:
Beef Stew
Cheese Enchiladas
Stuffed Crust Pizza
Tacos
H) Four places I would rather be right now:
In my bed with my electric blanket on
On an andventure anywhere
At Hume Lake
I suddenly got the urge to be at some ski resort sipping cocoa
I) Four friends I think will respond:
Farah
Michael
Ashli
Morgan
J) Four things I am looking forward to in the next year:
Graduating!
Getting a different job
Not going to school anymore
Seeing my nephew grow