The Movies
I used to HATE going to the movies. I just couldn't stand the thought of sitting in the same seat for 2+ hours, stuffing my face with crap, and paying 6+ dollars. But now, I'm ok with it. However, I am not okay with the movie that I saw on Saturday, The New World. It sucked! There was a collective moan of disapproval at the end of it. First of all, Tani fell asleep during it, Parker kept checking the time, I kept sighing, it was just bad. If I ever see Collin Ferrel in person, I am going to tell him to give me my six bucks back. I would not reccomend that movie to anybody. Ok, I think I'm done bashing The New World. On a happier note, we had a potluck at church tonight. I ate so much! (I know, I'm bad Michael) And I think that's about all I have to say tonight. I'm glad you were home this weekend Tani.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Monday, January 23, 2006
Insanity
If I could choose one word to describe my life right now, it would be insanity. Do I have a job? No. Am I going to school? Not technically. Is my life a complete mess? Yes. I know that God wants me here, in Santa Maria, but I am so tired of it. It seems like every week, something new gets added to my plate. But it's not something good like cake or corn on the cob, it's something horrible like they would have on fear factor. Except for the fact that I am not going to get $10,ooo dollars if I consume it, I am just going to get heartache.
If I could choose one word to describe my life right now, it would be insanity. Do I have a job? No. Am I going to school? Not technically. Is my life a complete mess? Yes. I know that God wants me here, in Santa Maria, but I am so tired of it. It seems like every week, something new gets added to my plate. But it's not something good like cake or corn on the cob, it's something horrible like they would have on fear factor. Except for the fact that I am not going to get $10,ooo dollars if I consume it, I am just going to get heartache.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Cold Hands, Warm Heart?
My hands are definitely cold right now, I don't know if the second is true though. Just kidding. My mom is out of jail. We don't know if she'll have to go back or not. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I feel like I've been doing a lot of waiting lately. I took one of those career personality tests last night. Wow, was that exciting. I scored highest in personal services and social services (isn't that the same thing?) and lowest in science. I scored higher in math than I did in science. What is that? I like science, I think it's interesting. Guys, I don't know what I am going to do. It's really starting to frustrate me. I have so many friends who already have their careers or families, and I just feel lost. I know I'm still "young", but I'm not going to stay that way. I want to go to school, but for what? Don't worry, I am not quitting school or anything, but I just feel aimless right now. I think I can finally understand why some people just pick a major that they don't even really care about, just to get their degree. I'm not saying that I'm going to do that either, but I just don't know what to do. I don't have a job right now, so i've just been kind of helping out around the house and stuff, I really like it. I wish I could make a job out of it, but alas, I can't. Well, I think I'm done blabbing. Keep it real guys.
My hands are definitely cold right now, I don't know if the second is true though. Just kidding. My mom is out of jail. We don't know if she'll have to go back or not. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I feel like I've been doing a lot of waiting lately. I took one of those career personality tests last night. Wow, was that exciting. I scored highest in personal services and social services (isn't that the same thing?) and lowest in science. I scored higher in math than I did in science. What is that? I like science, I think it's interesting. Guys, I don't know what I am going to do. It's really starting to frustrate me. I have so many friends who already have their careers or families, and I just feel lost. I know I'm still "young", but I'm not going to stay that way. I want to go to school, but for what? Don't worry, I am not quitting school or anything, but I just feel aimless right now. I think I can finally understand why some people just pick a major that they don't even really care about, just to get their degree. I'm not saying that I'm going to do that either, but I just don't know what to do. I don't have a job right now, so i've just been kind of helping out around the house and stuff, I really like it. I wish I could make a job out of it, but alas, I can't. Well, I think I'm done blabbing. Keep it real guys.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Don't Judge Me
I don't know why I put that as my title for this blog, but I did. Ok, I am just going to say it, I wish I could stay in bed all day. Not because I'm tired, but I feel like if I just stay there, nothing bad can happen to me. And if anything bad happens to anyone I care about, I won't have to deal with it. My mom is in jail. How random and lame is that? Sure, I could be sarcastic about it, and just make it a joke, but I am so over that! I've done that so many times to make the things that my mom does seem funny, but really, they're not. They're damaging to everyone around her. My dad put it well, "It's like she breaks things and expects everyone else to put the pieces back together." That's how I feel about our relationship, I try to put the pieces back, I try to be the adult, but it just doesn't work. Yesterday was the worst. My sister Jessica, my brother Chris, and I had to go get ALL of my mom's stuff out of her ex-husbands house. This included a lot of boxes, two very heavy dressers, and a big bed. Oh, and we had to get all of Jessica's stuff out of there because two days prior to all of this, she had moved in with my mom and Phil (her ex). A little side note about Phil- he is a total and complete jerk, a waste of life. I know it sounds harsh, but if you met him, you would understand. Anyway, my siblings and I went to the sheriff station to get an officer to escort us while we were getting the stuff because Lord knows we don't trust Phil for one second. After two trips, we got all of the stuff. The sheriff was amazing, he even carried some boxes in his car. But, it was hard work. My sister is pregnant and I didn't want her to lift anything heavy so Chris and I did all of the heavy lifting. At the end of the day I sat down and realized that I did all of this stuff for someone who doesn't even care about me. Even if she says she loves me and cares about me, how can I believe it?
Guys, I feel like my heart is in pieces. I don't know what I should be doing right now, I don't even know what I want to do. I feel like a loser, I feel like I'm being lazy, but deep down I know I'm not.
My mom is getting bailed out today. I don't know what's going to happen. My aunt (her sister) went to Santa Barbara to do everything that needed to be done to bail her out (thank God). I wouldn't have had the strength for that. And then she's going to come home to live with her dad. Who knows what happens after that, I suspect she'll have to go to trial in Nevada and then get put in prison there. And then all of this will happen all over again. So, that's where I'm at right now.
I don't know why I put that as my title for this blog, but I did. Ok, I am just going to say it, I wish I could stay in bed all day. Not because I'm tired, but I feel like if I just stay there, nothing bad can happen to me. And if anything bad happens to anyone I care about, I won't have to deal with it. My mom is in jail. How random and lame is that? Sure, I could be sarcastic about it, and just make it a joke, but I am so over that! I've done that so many times to make the things that my mom does seem funny, but really, they're not. They're damaging to everyone around her. My dad put it well, "It's like she breaks things and expects everyone else to put the pieces back together." That's how I feel about our relationship, I try to put the pieces back, I try to be the adult, but it just doesn't work. Yesterday was the worst. My sister Jessica, my brother Chris, and I had to go get ALL of my mom's stuff out of her ex-husbands house. This included a lot of boxes, two very heavy dressers, and a big bed. Oh, and we had to get all of Jessica's stuff out of there because two days prior to all of this, she had moved in with my mom and Phil (her ex). A little side note about Phil- he is a total and complete jerk, a waste of life. I know it sounds harsh, but if you met him, you would understand. Anyway, my siblings and I went to the sheriff station to get an officer to escort us while we were getting the stuff because Lord knows we don't trust Phil for one second. After two trips, we got all of the stuff. The sheriff was amazing, he even carried some boxes in his car. But, it was hard work. My sister is pregnant and I didn't want her to lift anything heavy so Chris and I did all of the heavy lifting. At the end of the day I sat down and realized that I did all of this stuff for someone who doesn't even care about me. Even if she says she loves me and cares about me, how can I believe it?
Guys, I feel like my heart is in pieces. I don't know what I should be doing right now, I don't even know what I want to do. I feel like a loser, I feel like I'm being lazy, but deep down I know I'm not.
My mom is getting bailed out today. I don't know what's going to happen. My aunt (her sister) went to Santa Barbara to do everything that needed to be done to bail her out (thank God). I wouldn't have had the strength for that. And then she's going to come home to live with her dad. Who knows what happens after that, I suspect she'll have to go to trial in Nevada and then get put in prison there. And then all of this will happen all over again. So, that's where I'm at right now.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Today
It all started at 9:38am when I called Michael. I was supposed to call him when I woke up so that we could go to breakfast, and that's what time I woke up. We went to IHOP and had a spectacular breakfast where we then proceeded to Wal-Mart and bought friendship slippers. That was fun. After that he convinced me to go to Santa Barbara with him to see an old friend. That was also good times. Just like back in the old skool days. After that we had a thrilling drive home and then Michael dropped me off at home where I put on my slippers (aka: house shoes) and sat around for a bit. Then I ate great hamburgers and headed off to Woodstocks for dollar pint night, oh yeah! Except for that I didn't drink anything. I arrived there with Deirdre, Kevin, and Austen, and we were met by: Billy, JD, Nelly, a bunch of Billy's friends and the vip guest.... John. It was quite fun (even though there were a bunch of people screaming and yelling because of the football game going on). Then we had an exciting drive home where we talked about weed and premarital sex, and how college ruined me, and about some other things too that I can't really remember but they were really funny at the time. Now I am about to go to bed to get some rest because I'm going to the second most happiest place on earth tomorrow.... Disneyland. I haven't figured out what the first happiest place is, but I'm pretty sure it's not Disneyland. Anywho, that was today.
Austen-"Kevin, how do you feel about vaginas?"
Kevin-"The giants?"
It all started at 9:38am when I called Michael. I was supposed to call him when I woke up so that we could go to breakfast, and that's what time I woke up. We went to IHOP and had a spectacular breakfast where we then proceeded to Wal-Mart and bought friendship slippers. That was fun. After that he convinced me to go to Santa Barbara with him to see an old friend. That was also good times. Just like back in the old skool days. After that we had a thrilling drive home and then Michael dropped me off at home where I put on my slippers (aka: house shoes) and sat around for a bit. Then I ate great hamburgers and headed off to Woodstocks for dollar pint night, oh yeah! Except for that I didn't drink anything. I arrived there with Deirdre, Kevin, and Austen, and we were met by: Billy, JD, Nelly, a bunch of Billy's friends and the vip guest.... John. It was quite fun (even though there were a bunch of people screaming and yelling because of the football game going on). Then we had an exciting drive home where we talked about weed and premarital sex, and how college ruined me, and about some other things too that I can't really remember but they were really funny at the time. Now I am about to go to bed to get some rest because I'm going to the second most happiest place on earth tomorrow.... Disneyland. I haven't figured out what the first happiest place is, but I'm pretty sure it's not Disneyland. Anywho, that was today.
Austen-"Kevin, how do you feel about vaginas?"
Kevin-"The giants?"
Monday, January 02, 2006
Mrs. Hough is Making Cookies
Oh the beauty of rainy days. I can't tell you how much "comfort food" I have already consumed today. I have been an organizing fool too. Yesterday was quite fun because I stayed in my pajamas all day long and didn't even go outside. It was awesome. But today, I just didn't feel like doing that again, so I woke up pretty early (around 9:30) and watched some of the Rose Parade. Then I did some other stuff. And now, I am sitting here watching Mother Hen make beautiful cookies, I can't wait to eat them. I think I'll start my job search tomorrow. That will be exciting. I hope I don't end up getting a boring job that I don't like, that would stink.
Yuck, I just saw a preview for that new movie that's coming out "Hostel". That is some scary stuff. The preview alone makes me scared. Anywho, just thought I'd say that.
Oh the beauty of rainy days. I can't tell you how much "comfort food" I have already consumed today. I have been an organizing fool too. Yesterday was quite fun because I stayed in my pajamas all day long and didn't even go outside. It was awesome. But today, I just didn't feel like doing that again, so I woke up pretty early (around 9:30) and watched some of the Rose Parade. Then I did some other stuff. And now, I am sitting here watching Mother Hen make beautiful cookies, I can't wait to eat them. I think I'll start my job search tomorrow. That will be exciting. I hope I don't end up getting a boring job that I don't like, that would stink.
Yuck, I just saw a preview for that new movie that's coming out "Hostel". That is some scary stuff. The preview alone makes me scared. Anywho, just thought I'd say that.
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