Classy
Ok, so on sunday, I get to go to an appreciation dinner for this thing at work. I even get to bring a date, Farah. Anyway, it's at the Madonna Inn and we can order whatever we want! One of my friends said that she is going to order Lobster. I wish I liked seafood, it's times like these where I am sad that I don't. I'm pretty excited though, it could quite possibly be the nicest meal I will ever eat, well except for when I get to heaven.
In other news, I start school at the end of the month. I feel horrible for saying it, but I am not looking forward to it. I mean, I'm sure I'll love it once it starts, but it's going to be hard to be disciplined. And I'm pretty much committed to my job, so that makes it tough too. I just want to be done with it already! (I should be done with it by now)
I love fall. I can't wait for all of the leaves to change, and for Thanksgiving. What a great holiday. Today was a beautiful fall day. It's warm outside with a little wind, and it has that fall feeling. Ok, enough about seasons.
I really want to go on an adventure. I know, I know, my whole life is an adventure... :o) But seriously, a real adventure. Like going for a drive but not knowing where I am going. Or building a raft or a house. (ok the house is unrealistic) I don't know when it will be, but soon, you will hear about my adventure.
Well, it looks like it's time to get back to work. I hope all of my dear friends are having an adventure today. Aloha.

Candy!
Can you believe it's almost Halloween?! You know what that means right? Candy!!!!! Here are my top 10 favorite things to get while trick or treating:
10-money
9-fun dip
8-pixi stix
7-shock tarts (remember those?)
6-smarties
5-nerds
4-snickers
3-rolos
2-milky way
And the number one.... always number one in my heart.... REESES!

Caffeine
Lately, I have been a caffeine maniac. I don't really know why either. I just get thirsty and don't want water, so I drink tea, or coffee, or coke. Needless to say, I've been pretty talkative and crazy. My drive to sacramento tonight will be spent consuming caffeine. It's pretty much my life now. I'll probably get over it soon though, hopefully. This morning, I got up an hour earlier than I was planning, so I got my oil changed. I even got a new air freshener and it smells amazing! I feel like I'm on some exotic island when I'm in my car now, pretty nice. Then, on my lunch break I got my car washed for $5! That's right, washed and hand dried for only $5! Can you believe it? Can you tell I've had too much (caffeine) to drink? Guys, seriously, today is the last day of summer? Isn't it sad? Ok, I'm over it, because my favorite holiday is in the fall..... Thanksgiving!!! I LOVE Thanksgiving. You can probably guess why, because I love to give thanks, and I'll admit, I do love all of the delicious food. Or as we like to say in spanish, comida. Ok, I need to stop writing. I suppose I'll get to work. Have a happy last day of summer everyone!

Rested
I went to sleep at 9:30 last night, it was beautiful. I'm glad we don't have cable or internet at our place. If we did, I think I would stay up a lot later. Sometimes I wish I were amish. But I'm not, so yeah, too bad. I'm going to sacramento this weekend, good times. I finally finished Crystal's quilt, and now I don't want to give it away, it's really cozy! Ok, I'm taking this spanish class for 6 weeks every Tuesday, and yesterday I learned how to say the date in spanish. Here's today's date: Miercoles, veinte de septiembre de dos mil seis. Pretty sweet huh?
My nepehew is pretty much adorable. I love him a lot! Wow, I guess I don't really have much to say. Sorry. :o) Have a good week my friends!

My Roomie
Two blogs in one day!!! Yes, it's slow at work.... I just wanted to say that I have an amazing roomie. Farah, I am so glad we moved in together! I always look forward to seeing you and laughing with you. Horray for God who brought you and Michael together. I've been practicing that toast.... :o) I love you Farah!!!!

What to Say?
I guess I'll start out this blog like so many others are being started on this day.... Mrs.Elder died yesterday. I am sad because she's not present in my life anymore, but I rejoice that she is home. I have never been more at peace with death before. What an amazing woman, my folk friend. She will be missed, and her life will continue to be celebrated. If you are reading this, please take a second to pray for her husband and family who will feel the void more than any of us. I am pretty excited about heaven. I think that's all I have to say about that.

Hips Don't Lie
There's really no meaning behind the title of this blog. I just didn't have a good one. You guys should ask Farah to sing it for you, she's pretty good at it, probably the best that I know of. My sister had her baby! It was an amazing experience. She did such a good job too, I couldn't believe it. Afterwards, I told her that I was really proud of her and she said, "It wasn't that hard." Can you even believe it?! Anywho, my nephew is beautiful, I pretty much started sobbing the moment I saw him. I'll put a pic up on my myspace soon. His name is Anthony Jadon Loux. Yay, there's another Loux in the world!
In other news, I went to Kickback with the High Schoolers this weekend. It was great! Kari Way and I tried to pull a "joke" on the campers by putting goldfish in some pitchers of water. It didn't work out because someone spoiled it! Yesterday we had a ceremony and released the fish into the creek. I said a few words and then Kari and I watched as they adapted to their new world.
To top off the kickback weekend, Kaleb and I did the most hilarious skit ever! I don't feel like writing about it, but if you ask me, I'll tell you about it.
Well, I think that's all. Time for some shout outs?
Fauf-Thanks for putting up with my craziness. Sorry I kept trying to talk to you while you were reading last night. :o) You are an amzing friend and roomie. I love you!
M. Shaw-Sorry I tried to take the cookies, I just get really posessive about food. I'm glad we're friends.
Parkman-I'm glad you watched Zoolander. I was afraid you didn't like it because it's so funny. Maybe you'll start liking friends too, then we can be friends again. Just kidding, I love ya parker and I'm glad you and the shaw live together.
Carrie-Thanks for writing me into your will last night and for giving me my inheritance early. I'm just like the prodigal son! I had a blast with you this weekend!
Ashli-I'm glad we're on the same page... I've never seen worship quite like that. :o) I'm excited about you bundle of joy, love you.
Hef-I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in a while! You are still dear to me, and I hope everything is going great! You can breakdance fight me if you want.
Bottelsen Buddies-I drove down McCoy today and thought about the good times we had. I hope you all are doing well and that you still have your sanity. :o)
Tani-I don't even know if you read this anymore. If you do, I hope your semester goes well and that you haven't completely forgotten about me. If you don't, I will call on Tom Cruise to destroy you with his witchcraft.
Lt.Tews-Hope you're enjoying your vacation!
Jaz-Thanks for reading my blog. :o) Hope teaching is going well! Love you.

Bambino
I am going to be an auntie any day now! I am so excited! I hope he's cute, I'm sure he will be. You guys better lie and tell me he is even if he isn't. I didn't have to work yesterday, it was beautiful. Today, this lady at my work told me that I'm single because I sing all of the time! That's a lie, I don't sing that much. Haha. But seriously, I'm looking for a guy that I adore more than food. So, if you can make me happier than a warm chocolate chip cookie, hit me up, we'll talk. Don't think that this is going to be easy, I really love food. I bet my nephew is going to love food too. I should start feeding him a meatball sub as soon as he exits the womb. Haha. The flying duchess is still afloat. In fact, thar be a garden sproutin soon on the deck. We wenches know how to make a ship a home. :o) Have a happy labor day all! Hey, maybe my sister will have her baby on labor day! That would be hilarious!

Craziness at Work
Ok, so just now, like 10 minutes ago, this guy came in to cash his check. No problem, I make my living by cashing people's checks. :o) Then, he started rambling on about how he has to pay bills and how he hates it (don't we all). Then, he started telling me that he got in an accident and he can't work, etc. I count his money out to him and he says, "What's your name?" I told him my name and he reached out to shake my hand, I shook his hand and then he took my hand and kissed it!!!!! WTH?!!!! Then, he starts telling me how beautiful I am (of course I am nodding my head in agreement) and tells me that next time he comes he is going to take me out to dinner and such. Then, he makes me count his money back to him AGAIN, tells me I'm beautiful AGAIN, and hands me 5 dollars! I gave the 5 back to him, and he tells me that I'm breaking his heart, but there was NO WAY I was taking that 5. So, I gave it back to him about 4 times, he finally took it and made sure I knew that next time he came in, he was going to take me out. What the heck?! I pretty much drenched my hand in sanitizer after that. Kind of a creepy 10 minutes....

Vacation Adventures
I'm sitting here at work after a week of beautiful r&r. I kind of like it though, I feel like it's my first day again, it's nice. I have a new found respect for life.... :o) Ok, I had an awesome vacation! Are you guys ready for this?
Monday-I went with Mother Hen to drop Harry off at camp in the morning. When I got home, Farah and I headed off to Morro Bay for some kayaking. Kayaking was so sweet! I thought I was going to be a little scared, but I wasn't. Good times. That night, Farah made me a birthday dinner and then we watched friends.
Tuesday-My aunt who lives in Oregon called me because she was in town with my cousin and wanted to hang out with me. We went to Santa Barbara and had a good time. Rose came over and gave me a bday gift of a plant. We potted it together, it was nice. Michael and Parker came over for a bit and Parker gave me an amazing cd for my b-day! It was delightful.
Wednesday-I woke up and packed for Sacramento, then went over to the Hough's to say goodbye. Mother Hen made me some b-day toast. Yummy. I left for Sac around 11 and got there at about 4:30. That night I went out to dinner with all my old friends, it was nice.
Thursday-I just hung out in Sacramento with Steph and then went to Sonic where I had some tots.
Friday-I headed off to a wonderful weekend in the wilderness. It was full of beautiful adventures, along with some clumsy falls and scary climbing. I had a really good time.

All in all, my vacation was awesome. When I got home I had a note on my bed from Farah that told me she missed me, and a book on my toilet from Michael about starting your period. Haha. And now I'm back at work. Vacation lives on in my heart. :o)

Last Night
My closet was so messy last night, so I decided to clean it. In the heat of my cleaning frenzy I found a couple papers I had written at Sac State. I couldn't believe I wrote them. They were filled with so much passion! What happened? I remember the first day I realized how big this world was, and how great the measure of suffering in so many places was. Everyday I thought about selling everything I had, or getting on a plane to go help people in need. It's not that I am apathetic about it now, I'm just more reluctant to do anything about it. Is that bad? I don't know.

My Alaphabet
A-Awake. It's exciting to wake up in the Flying Duchess.
B-Bundt. This weekend I learned how to make a punch ring with a bundt cake pan.
C-Coast Hills. I love working there.
D-Dust. My old room is pretty dusty and I need to clean it.
E-Excitement. I have pretty much had excitement overload lately.
F-Friends. Making new ones, marrying off old ones, having secret animosity towards some of them... :o) friends are great.
G-Goals. I feel like I am slowly accomplishing them.
H-Heaven. All this talk about it is making me anxious to get there.
I-Illiad. I need to read that book.
J-Jumping. Last night I literally (haha) jumped for joy because my vacation in in 11 days!
K-Kindness. The Flying Duchess is a wonderful display of so many people's kindness towards Farah and I.
L-Lamaze. I'm done with it. Hopefully I can remember it in the future.
M-Michael Scott. What a role model. He is pretty much my hero today. (watch the office!)
N-North. That's where I will be heading in 11 days or so! My dear Sacramentans, how I miss you.
O-Oil. It costs too much.
P-Party. I went to one. Not my cup of tea.
Q-Quiet. It's definitely a quiet day at the credit union today, the reason I am writing this ridiculous blog.
R-Rest. I need some of that.
S-Soccer. I played it last night with 30 jr highers. Wow. I think I could have died.
T-Talladega Nights. It comes out this week. I can't wait to see it. "Help me Jesus! Help me Tom Cruise!"
U-Ugly. Mel Gibson's drunken comments. Seriously.
V-Venti White Mocha. This would be delightful right about now.
W-Win. I really want to win the weight loss challenge at work. I'm doing good so far.
X-Yesterday, this lady at work gave me one of those handi-snack things. Remember those? I always got the in elementary school. Good times.
Y-Yellow. The color of a lot of things in my living room, and a great coldplay song.
Z-Zagnut. I still have two candy bars in my glove box, compliments of Steph.

Change of Thinking
Farah and I are offically roomies! I pretty much love her. Last night we stayed up and talked about, yes Michael, life, love and other mysteries. I really don't want to go back to work tomorrow! Today has been such a good day, this whole weekend has just been amazing! I think I've had excitement overload. :o) I'm pretty sure I'll crash soon. The Hough's are on vacation, I really miss them. They come back on Friday. Crystal is married, totally crazy. The wedding was pretty sweet. I don't have much else to say, I'm just really happy right now. Life is good.

The Last
Ok, here's what's going on. I wrote this letter tonight to let go of this "thing" that has just been tormenting me for too long. I'm not suicidal, I'm not depressed, I am fine. I pray that this really is it.

To the man who has broken me more than anyone else,

If my heart were a book, your name would appear on many of the pages. How I wish those pages were written in pencil so I could erase them. It wasn't right for you to use me in an effort to hide your feelings for men. For that, I feel betrayed in so many ways. From the night that I stayed awake in my bed too excited to sleep because of you, I thought we would most likely end up together. Even when we weren't acting on our friendship, I still held hope in my heart for us. The night you called me to apologize for not giving me the time and attention I was worth when we were dating, what was that? Was that really what you were apologizing for? Why didn't you just apologize for dating me? To say that I was always just a good friend, is that true? Tell me what is really true! HPI. Here are some truths: you have broken my heart more times than you know- tonight is the last time, I didn't reject you- you rejected me, the letters that I gave you were the most personal and treasured thing I have ever given anyone, so treasured and personal that I was waiting for our wedding day to give them to you- I wish I had never written them, I put an effort into our friendship- you threw it away, you lied to me. I suppose I could have looked a little deeper into the situation. I could have taken a hint when you made no effort to see or talk to the girl you said you "really liked too." I could have kept you in my mind as the mold for my future husband and left it at that, but I didn't. This letter is the result of that, among other things. I don't know how you can erase me so easily, without even talking to me, without even apologizing, and I remain tortured. I don't want to think about this anymore. I don't want to cry over this anymore. I don't want to wonder if I did something wrong anymore. I just want it to be gone, so now it is. I've realized that I have nothing to be sorry for in this disaster, so I'm not. I have nothing left to say, nothing left to ask.

May my heart never be troubled or swayed by this again,
Jennifer

Ice Hockey and Such
I decided today that I am going to go to an ice hockey game this year. How fun would that be? To get in the spirit, I am going to watch the Mighty Ducks and Miracle. Who's with me? In other news, this is the week that Farah and I say ahoy to The Flying Dutchess. We will board our ship on Thursday and hide our plunder sometime thereafter. I hear the Black Pearl will be arriving soon, we wouldn't want the slimey souls on that wretched ship to find our treasure. Pirate Drazin and I will have to find a suitable place for our valuable jewels and such. Dread pirates Parker and Shaw have shown no mercy in the villages they have ravaged in the past. Contrary to popular belief (Pirate Shaw), I attack my villages with grace, and I don't use items such as: sardines, potatoes, tortillas, processed meats, etc. If ye pirates want to accuse me, you will surely walk the plank for your horribly false accusations. That is all.

Living on a Pirate Ship
It's true, Farah and I are still searching for a name for our love shack. And wouldn't you know, the Michael's are naming their place after a pirate ship, what a great idea! So, I have generated some possible pirate ship names for F n J's place...
The Cruel Manta
The Gold Lightning
The Poison Cry
The Gold Thunder
The Vile Cannon
The Swashbuckler

What do you guys think? Farah?

I Cheated
I totally screwed up my diet guys. Not only did I eat ice cream last night, I had Wendy's for lunch today, and I am about to consume yet another bad substance. Somebody needs to get over here and slap me! Ok I think I'm done.
You guys are pretty much hilarious. I assure you all that I am fine. I wrote that poem because it was just something I have held onto in my heart for a while, and now in my eyes, the letters are gone. I'm over it. I don't feel like writing it all out so if you want to know about it all, just ask. I don't have to work tomorrow, this is a very exciting fact. My plans? Nothing really, which is great. Tonight was my last lamaze class with my sister. It ended pretty good, I think all of the future parents learned a lot, I was pretty much just scared out of having kids.
Last night I bought a couple of episodes of The Office off of ITunes. If you haven't seen that show, you need to. It is pretty amazingly funny. Here's a quote from it: "I can raise and lower my cholesterol at will." "Why would you want to raise your cholesterol?" "So I can lower it."
Here's another one, just in case you're not completely convinced: "Statistics show that most office gossip happens around the water cooler. That has me at a disadvantage because, I bring my own waster to work." Come on, that's some funny stuff and you know it!
Ok, I think I have said enough about stuff. Have a good week my friends!

Letters and Words
Ok, I realize that this might be a little lame, but I've been thinking about some things lately and tonight I wrote a poem. Don't judge me. Here we go...

Letters and Words

I gave you a part,
a piece of myself.
You didn't want it,
maybe you never did.
Was I worth anything?

My heart written down,
in letters and words.
I gave them to you,
but you didn't want them.
Were they worth anything?

I wish I had thrown them away,
my letters to you.
My words in the trash,
better there than in your hands.

If I would have known,
I would have thrown them away!
They are more worthy there,
than in your hands.

Please throw them away,
my letters and words.

Dyno-Mighty
So yesterday was the Fourth of July, pretty exciting. I pretty much love fireworks, even though they pollute the air and people don't pick up their their remains afterwards. Ok, I had been looking forward to the church block party ever since I heard about it. And I'll admit that it started out a little lame, but it definitely ended up being a blast. Haha, get it? I was very happy to see all of my beloved friends there, even Morgan came! Michael totally almost had an asthma attack, which was a little scary. I even went on a walk with my vintage buddies Rose and Michael, that was pretty exciting. The only sad part was that it was a potluck and I ate a lot more than I should have. Oh yeah, I also entered into the apple pie cook off, I really thought I had a chance at winning. But alas, somebody with more experience won! Blasted age discrimination. :o) Just kidding. Anyway, all in all I had a great fourth, hope all of you guys and gals did too.

Weight Loss Challenge
Yesterday, my co-workers and I got on a scale (seperately) to see how much we weighed. Did we do this for fun? No. You see, we all decided that it was time to shed some pounds, but this time, it's going to be different... because it's for cold hard cash. Sure I want to lose some weight, but nothing motivates like the crisp feel of Jefferson, Abe, or Johnson. I would also like to fit into my favorite pair of jeans again too, don't juge me guys. I must say, dieting is really hard! The exercising part is much easier. I suppose it will be worth it in the end though.
Ok, next topic. One more month until Farah and I move in together!! I am very excited about this. I've been trying to think of names for our place. Anyone have any suggestions? A few that I have thought of are: Serenity, The Haven, The Love Nest, and that's about it. Farah, what do you think?
Alright, I really don't have anything else to say. Hope to see most of you at the 4th of July Block Party, you better vote for my apple pie!
Shout Outs:
Michael: Your blog about us and the x-men/women was fantastic! I give it five stars. :o)
Farah:I can't believe there's only one short month until we are together everyday!! Our place is going to be so great, I am so thankful that we became friends.
Tani:You better get me something from that booth you're always working at. I like explosions, that's all I'm gonna say. Call me.
Parker:Does it scare you that I'm planning our future? If it does, I'm sorry. I just have all of these ideas about what the roomies can do together! The picnic/bike ride one is pretty great, don't you think so?
Zach:Your deck looks amazing. And I've decided that I am going to agree with Michael, you are pretty much Angel. Glad we got back in touch, come visit soon because we all miss you.
Lauren:You crack me up everyday! I am really thankful that we work together, it's gorgeous!!!
Carrie:How about a free tour eh? Seriously, we need to find time for each other, I still have your bonfire blanket if you want to go to the beach sometime... with me. :o)
Ashli:Remember 2 summers ago when you lived in old orcutt and we had the bbq where we kidnapped Kevin? That was fun. We should do it again soon, maybe w/o the kidnap though.
Austen:If you don't bring me back something from Sonic, I will fight you. And that's no lie.
Steph:You are a great photographer. That sunset was incredible. I can't wait until I come to Sacramento again, old skool.
Reuben:"Guns don't kill people, I kill people."
And to everyone else out there in blog land, forgive me for not giving you a shout out. Happy Canada Day my friends, Happy Canada Day.